Continuing with my assignment (4) : A bad day for me :(

Today was a horrible day. When I received my exam results, the results were not only bad. It was worse! I actually failed an exam that I prepared so much for. I was so sad, I was crying in school. Later, because I was crying so much they actually had to send me to the school counselor.

The school counselor is a very good teacher. She told me that one failed exam is not the end of the world( which I thought was). She convinced me that what everyone expects is not always what they will receive ( I had to learn that the hard way). The way she taught me stuff is by using gems, toys and sand only. She managed to tell me that truthfully life is sometimes unfair but we have to deal with it and go on with life and hope that next time things will be better ( I seriously hope).

When I reached home, I was crying again after I called Mama to tell her the bad news. I could tell that she was very disappointed because of my bad results. I also noticed I will be working even on the "holidays". I am also very sad because I let down Mama, Aunty Susan, H.E. Tsem Tulku Rinpoche, Por Por and many other people.

I hope everyone could forgive me for what I have done and I hope that in the other exams I will do better. By the way, now I could not cry anymore because my eyes are too dry. So I shall express my feelings in text.

:'( I am sad :'(

I already completed my prayers and my offerings. I also have finished my 100 prostrations. My tuition is at 6 p.m. ( Malaysian time)

So, now I shall continue with my assignment of re-typing Day 10 and 11 of the book: LIBERATION IN THE PALM OF YOUR HANDS!

TRAINING YOUR MIND IN THE STAGES OF THE PATH SHARED WITH THE SMALL SCOPE (119)

This has two subheadings: (I) developing a yearning for a good rebirth; (2) teaching the means for happiness in your next rebirth.

DEVELOPING A YEARNING FOR A GOOD REBIRTH (120)

This has two subdivisions:(I) remembering that your present rebirth will not last long and that you will die; (2) thinking about what sort of happiness or suffering you will have in your next rebirth in either of the two types of migrations.

RECALLING THAT YOUR PRESENT REBIRTH WILL NOT LAST LONG AND YOU WILL DIE(121)

This has three subheadings: (I) the drawbacks of not remembering death; (2) the advantages of remembering death; (3) the actual way to remember death.

THE DRAWBACKS OF NOT REMEMBERING DEATH (122)

There are six sections here.

THE DRAWBACK THAT YOU WILL NOT REMEMBER DHARMA (123)

If you do not recollect death, you will think about only this life, get caught up in its many demands---food, clothes, and so on --- and thus not practice Dharma. If you recollect death well, you will work hard to prepare for your next lives, just as a Khampa about to go on a journey would work only at preparing and packing. Your enormous craving for food,fashion, reputation, and so on, can be blamed on your not remembering impermanence. Every day that passes without recalling impermanence is a day of your life wasted.

THE DRAWBACK THAT YOU WILL REMEMBER [THE DHARMA] BUT NOT PRACTICE IT ( 124 )




I shall write until here for now thanks.( more secret text)

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